So, the past few days have been a little overwhelming for me. I went to the doctor yesterday and I am dilated to a 2 and 50 % effaced, which isn't much, but it still made everything super real for me. I planned on cleaning up the house a little this morning because I HATE having a messy house on the weekends. So, I started with the bathrooms. I got one done before Bo started crying. By the time I finished the other two, he was practically hysterical. So, I held him and played with him in the playroom for a little while before we headed out to water the garden. Luckily, he loves being outside, so he didn't cry too much as long as I was close enough to talk to him. He stood at the fence just next to the garden while I watered. We came inside and I really wanted to vacuum the floors, but he would have none of it! So, I fixed some Mac and Cheese (the girls favorite) and we ate lunch. After that, I fed Bo his peas (much to his chagrin) and his bottle. He was very mad at me because I made him finish his peas. So, when I went to finish folding and putting away the laundry, I came back into the front room and found him like this. All I could think was, "Dude, I am totally with ya!"
It has hit me hard that I am not ready for this baby to come! Mostly because Bo is such a mama's boy. But alot, too, with having 4 kids under 4 1/2. I am sure that Marianne and Allison will be a great help, but they get frustrated when Bo cries, too. I am sure that things will be great, but I am very anxious and worried about how everyone will react.
As much of a stinker as he was this morning, I can't help but giggle at his sweetness. He really is a sweet baby and just needs that little extra love from Mommy. What a cutie!